[Barcoded @ Birth]

eek.

2007-01-29T20:24:24Z

been a while, eh? ;/

leslie m. cutting

2006-11-19T23:25:30Z

i like knowing how other people feel about the same things that we experience. yeseterday was my second show with Original Sin Productions featuring Serpentine Gates, The Vivid Twisted, Verge of Ruin, Farewell Division, and Tainted Purity. The following is Leslie's perception of the day/evening:

Yesterday was too good for words. I woke up at 12 and started freaking out because I thought it was 1 and Sarah was supposed to pick me up or whatever at 2. She called I got ready... Didn't leave the house till about 2:30-45ish? Sarah, John, & Jenese (sp?) picked me up and we went to Sarah's house to wait for Juice and get ready and whatever. Her cat is crazy but cute. We didn't do much but it was fun and cute. When Juice didn't arrive right away we decided to go get the pizza and then come back and wait for her. We went to get the pizza... that was an adventure in it's own right. When we got back to the parking lot in front of Sarah's house it was only a few minutes before Juice arrived. We headed off to Hamilton St. for the show a little after 4 while eating pizza and blasting amazing music. Sweet. The ride went by sort of quickly but all is good. When we got to the cafe we just hung out and watched Sarah and her boss set things up. Then cool kids started to show up. Zach (my son), Jackie, Hannah, Katie, Mike... I probably butchered the spelling of those names but whatever. :) The first band that played was Serpentine Gates I believe.. They were alright. They had a lot of support from the audience but I think that's mostly because a lot of people came out to see them specifically. I wasn't extremely impressed but they didn't suck. The next band that played was The Vivid Twisted. Based on appearance people sort of thought they would suck. Some of the players look a little older. Maybe in their 30s... But they were FUCKING AMAZING. There is no other way to put it. It was really cool watching how everyone reacted to there music. Maybe at first a lot of people thought they would suck but there was like a distinct moment when I swear I could feel the energy of the room shift. We [the audience] are at fault for judging before knowing, but the one good thing I can say is that we recognize good music. And to me that's what it's all about at the end of the day. When the pit started going it was pretty cool. I wanted to join but I'm not badass any more. Oh and people moshing kept hitting John. It was funny. =P The third band that played was Verge of Ruin. They were okay. Not great though. I liked how that one fellow had his shirt off. It was cute. Then some people wanted to get weed and drama sort of started. For a bit Sarah was mad at me. It made me sad cause I really wasn't going to smoke. I had no money anyway and everyone else helped pay for it. So I went to hang out with Sarah and John. The entire night they kissed a lot. It was so adorable and I'm jealous. They are seriously the best couple. Anyway! John and I helped Sarah at the door for a few minutes and just hung out. The next band that played was Farewell Division. They were good enough I suppose. The only reason I took a lot of pictures of them was because their lead was a girl. The last band to play was Tainted Purity. I saw them at Sarah's other show but yesterday they were so fucking good. It made me happy. After the show was over we headed out. We didn't want to leave right away so Sarah drove us to McDonalds. On the way there we jammed to MSI.* We took pictures once we were there too. Then Sarah drove John home. Then she took me home. Fun fun day. Good good music. When I got home I talked to Kristian till after 5AM. I hate him so much. Okay. I'll start posting pictures.
-lc.

*Why is it that most boys HATE Mindless Self Indulgence? I don't get it.

lol;
all i have to say about this is that john loves MSI! <3 :D

jimmy crack corn and i don't care.

2006-11-19T23:19:13Z

if i could only put my life into words. it just doesn't seem possible anymore. it's a more of "you had to be there" type thing. //sigh. there have been numerous events in the past few days and i don't even know how to put them in words. it's like, they prove what i'm all about? that's who i am; that's me. i wish someone would understand what i mean to say...

first day back.

2006-11-14T02:25:17Z

i didn't think it would end like this. i feel like a completely new person. ;/

week off from school.

2006-11-13T02:02:35Z

so pretty much this was a good week. it started off with a lame weekend; however, it got a lot better. i went to the mall about four times. once with leslie and another with martha. i got the headphones for my ipod. ^_^ i finished my flashcards by friday. i really wanted to get them done before the weekend. john moved on wednesday. he now lives in Hightstown, NJ. on thursday john came over for a good part of the day. it was good seeing him again. i tend to miss him a lot. ;/ i love him soo much. <3 friday was erica ward's sweet 16. it was a good party besides ariel sitting at our table and the animosity in the air. i dont really want to say anything else about it but yeah; it ends there. john and i talked on the phone until very late hours of the morning many of the nights. we had some good conversations. during the break i also joined IMVU. it's quite addicting, but i love it! :) my mother and i went to outback steakhouse one night, and hometown buffet with martha after the mall, last night. i got to sleep-in, let alone sleep at all, yesterday and today. that's pretty much it. now it's back to school tomorrow. //sigh. i really don't want to go but whatever. i miss them. x_x wednesday the swimming/diving season starts. saturday is my next show at hamilton st cafe. i would love it if i could see john again from now until then, but i guess we'll just have to wait until saturday. it only makes sense. that was my general update of the past week; i must get in the shower. hope everyone has had a good week/weekend! lates.

p.s. leslie, if you want the pics of us from the party, let me know! XD

BITCHEZZ!

2006-11-10T17:03:55Z

IMVU - The World's Greatest 3D Chat

IMVU has taken over my life.

2006-11-09T16:05:29Z

//sigh. not much of anything exciting has been going on. i haven't had school this entire week. went to the mall here and there. been on IMVU for more than is necessary. haven't been doing my homework. blah blah blah. JOHN IS COMING OVER TODAY! scratch that. he's here. byye. <3

weddings!

2006-11-06T06:42:47Z

haha;

naked.

2006-11-04T16:35:53Z

anyway, back to sunday, 29th - about the festival. even though MSI was late, their fucking set was amazing. we hung around a bit after that and then finally left. i wanted to buy the MSI dress but decided not to. i lost my voice that night, it was horrible. x_x i got home around 1a after getting gas and dropping off juice™ and christina.

monday, 30th - wasn't anything new. school and then home. talked to john. that was about it.

tuesday, 31st - HAPPY HALLOWEEN! i was a pirate. i wasn't going to wear my costume, but i did. i also had to make up the RADAR test thingy, in school. uhh, after school i had a dentist appointment. 5 cavities! x_x i was supposed to do the whole halloween thing with leslie and rae, or so i thought. leslie had plans with her cousins. rae had plans with brandon but i was welcome to go. i went, and it was fun. some shit happened but i'm not getting into that. i had fun, i got a lot of candy, and i made a new friend, Zach: matt's brother. turns out brandon didn't show up, 'cause of me. it had rae feeling like shit and wanting to cry. it was retarded; if anyone should be feeling like shit it should be me. we had KFC for dinner. they also got to hear john do the "oh yeah" thing.

wednesday, 1st - school was school. shit to make up. x_x i started the AP CHEM test strouse gave on tuesday. eh, ;/. i didn't go to choir after school. i came home, did a lot of work. i had a paper for photo to write. i had flashcards for strouse to write. i also had notes to write for history. i pretty much got the paper and notes done. i went to sleep around 12:42a. my mommy also brought home KFC for dinner.

thursday, 2nd - HAPPY 7-MONTH ANNIVERSARY, JOHN! <33 i love him. XD anyway, so school was, eh. i finished one side of all the notecards. strouse made a deal with me and said i'll get a 45/50 if i hand it in after the break. XD i had the paper and all the notes done. it was pretty much a good day. well, whatever. after school i stayed after to take the rest of the AP CHEM test. my mom was running a little late so i went over to rae's. i did much of my homework there. i got home and did the rest. i got KFC for the 3rd time in a row for dinner. x_x i didn't finish it all though; i still had a famous bowl left. i talked to john, and that was about it.

friday, 3rd - i had my famous bowl for lunch. i also went to rae's voice lessons. school was okay. i wore my furries. there were good and bad comments. i took care of the bad ones. paxton didn't say shit; that was good on my part. during 9th period i con't to finish the AP CHEM test. i was going to leave like 3 blank but then i got to stay after and get a ride and finish the test all but one question. XD i'm fairly confident about it and i believe i did a really good job. i eventually came home around 4:08p. talked to john. i drove my mother somewhere. we were going to go to the mall, but we're doing that today. we're also going to barnes and noble. i have to find a book that i want to buy. besides that though, i came home and spent the rest of the night on the phone with john. we were on until about 5a this morning. i love him, <3. we eventually hung up.

saturday, 4th - john woke me up with the sweetest phone call around 9:30a. he had to get off 'cause his mother's father was coming over. when we hung up i took the world's longest shower. now i'm sitting here not doing much of anything. i believe i'm going to start my flashcards soon. i'm also going to the mall today. well, that's about it. i'll update later tonight if anything exciting happens.

p.s. i have no school until monday, november 13th.

7-month anniversary.

2006-11-02T23:35:35Z

today is me and john's 7-month anniversary. yay for us; we made it this far. i love him, dearly. i really do. he means everything to me and i think this is where i'm supposed to be. i've finally found my place in life and the right person to spend it with. i believe we have potential in making this work. i know i fell in love before, but nothing could compare to this. this is it; this is where i belong. I love you, John and i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. ♥ together forever &always.

i have a lot to post about, but i'll do it later tonight or tomorrow. no school all of next week...this should be fun. x_x

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! XD

2006-10-31T11:42:54Z

tuesday the 24rd i don't remember shit.
wednesday the 25th, school was school; stayed after for the swimming/diving meeting and then choir rehearsal.

pretty much it.

now my weekend:

friday, 27th. - saw iii comes out. i didn't go see it. i stayed home that night, and finished some homework. i don't remember much else, neither does my mommy.

saturday, 28th - john came over. he was here for a long ass time, and 'cause of his indoorness, we didn't go see saw iii. it was fun, though. i missed him. ^_^ after that i believe i was home for the rest of the night. oh! and i went to radioshack 'cause my ipod has AIDS. they couldn't find a cure; however, apple in menlo mall did.

sunday, 29th - saints &sinners festival = yumm. it was awesome! bianca, me, juice, &christina. i mainly went to see suicide city, god forbid, kenny muhammed, and msi. the night was all around good. i got a backstage pass. msi was also late, so instead of playing 3rd to last they closed the show. killswitch still got to play their hour and 10 minute set. msi didn't play that much 'cause they were stuck in traffic from ohio. ah! gotta go; school. x_x

i couldn't...

2006-10-30T06:11:42Z

even begin to tell you about my weekend. x_x

sorries.

2006-10-27T19:14:09Z

last night was emotional. sorry about not updating about tuesday &wednesday. x_x

worst and best day of my life.

2006-10-26T19:32:59Z

1^st: i'll tell you about my week @ the end of the week. (aka tomorrow/friday); i know it's not such a good idea, but it was either that or never or maybe i'll just do it today but at the end of today.

2^nd: i DO NOT think mr. paxton has a nice ass. leslie said so, &now he thinks so. x_x

3^rd: i love mr. strouse. somehow between yesterday beginning of 9th period and today beginning of 8th period (when i have AP CHEMISTRY), the test was moved to next week tuesday. i was like WTF MATE? srsly; like, i did the simplest studying anyone could do...i also made a cheat sheet; i know, it's bad. BUT, for some reason after today's going over blah from ch.6, I GET IT! yay. we also started ch.7; i can't wait for chapter 7.

[this is where the less important shit starts]

-i love photography; mr lupo thinks i have potential, so do i. (that's a first)
-i'm getting better @ singing; i still want voice lessons.
-i used a cheat sheet on my spanish quiz; i don't care. i still don't know wtf "paises" is. i have confidence i did well, but i'm pretty sure i suck @ life...i wish i was raphael.
-we had a pretty damn good discussion today in history; it's slowly improving.
-lunch = paxton thinking that i think he has a nice ass and him agreeing with it. x_x
-i got a 51 out of 60 on my adding &subtraction polynomials/factoring quiz that we took yesterday. at the end of the quiz she had the key and said we could look at it when we handed it in to see what we got wrong and what not; dude, i definitely thought i got soo many points off for careless shit. turns out i got one of the highest scores and my work on the problems i did wrong was intelligent! there was one problem where a number couldn't be squared and i did a square root foil thing and i was the only one that did it and it was smart of me and mrs. fedorczyk(sp?) acknowledged me for it. i was very proud.

now let me tell you a little about my morning. so last night after i got off the phone with john i was supposed to study for the "ch. 5&6 ap chem test today". N/A --so then i set my alarm to 4:30a to do some problems then. i was going to set two alarms, one for 4:30a &one for 5a; however, i thought that if i woke up @ 4:30a and needed more sleep i'd just reset the alarm to 5a. my alarm goes off 4:30a. i wake up, reset the alarm, go back to sleep. i wake up to my school alarm @ 6a. I FORGOT TO ENABLE THE 5a ALARM WHEN I RESET IT; ugh.

&now for some freaky shit: i'm pretty sure everyone who isn't me or john or my mother are unaware of the fact i possess a sixth sense. it's genetic; i got it from my father. last night i dreamt that the test was moved, &i hadn't known about it. when i woke up @ 6a i, of course, remembered the dream &wished that, that was how it was; however, it wasn't. i had to face reality and i knew the test was today. TELL ME WHY WHEN I GET INTO CLASS SOMEHOW THE TEST IS NEXT WEEK TUESDAY. no, he didn't change it &i just didn't know about it. it was on the board this entire week; explain that. yesterday after class i approached mr. strouse and confronted him about my confidence in my inability to pass this test: he gave me a couple problems and told me to try them &it'll help me 'cause they're problems he based the test on. let me remind me, i said verbatim, "I am going to fail this test tomorrow." i got no feedback stating otherwise. he told me not to worry about it, &to just know the equations &if anything i'll be fine. what there states that the test has been moved to next week tuesday?? NOTHING.

bottomline.

p.s. since this was all about today, later tonight i will update about tuesday and wednesday. XD lates.

if i'm not a failure...

2006-10-26T10:06:57Z

second AP Chemistry test of the year today. chapters 5 &6. i am going to fail horribly. i didn't study last night 'cause i wanted to get a good night's rest. i set my alarm for 430a. i woke up, changed it to 5a, and went back to sleep. I FORGOT TO TURN THE ALARM ON. so my other alarm rings at 6a which is the normal time i wake up. !@#$%& WHAT THE FUCK; now i did none of the work, i have no idea what the fuck i'm doing, and i'm going to fail...miserably. i'm taking my book to school so i can try to sneak in a few problems. //sigh. i need to go get ready. wish me luck. i need it.

SEX:

2006-10-25T20:51:43Z

IN TREES.

weekenddz.

2006-10-23T23:08:19Z

either i'm the bi-polar one or her. x_x anyhow, PSATs went pretty well on saturday. i picked up some cappucino and a bagel con queso de cream. i also drove this girl Erin to it. they were pretty alright. i was very confident with the math because it was so easy. i came home, took a little nap and then allison called me to tutor her in spanish a little bit. she did pretty well. i then went with her and jennifer and their family and jeneese to dinner at Sunny Palace on Rt. 18. good ass times! XD i can't even begin to explain the shit that happened. it was ruined in the end though 'cause i was supposed to drive the camaro home but yeah, bullshit. ANYWAY; so we went back to their place and of course everyone noticed that i wasn't the "sarah that they all know" and what not. i of course made them believe everything was a-okay. we then had ice cream cake and stuff. jennifer's dad then gave me a ride home. i came home and spoke with john for the rest of the night. <3

sunday i pretty much stayed home all day and talked to john on the phone. x_x it was horrible; it was like a john and sarah phone marathon, lol. i eventually went to the mosque with my mom and grandmother. it was alright, eh. something did happened that showed my mother why i'm leaning away from Islam and why i hate that place and that it's because of the people. i almost got into a fight with this bitch and she had the nerve to say i was the one who started it even though she was the one who started it and even after it she kept going around to the people by her and telling them how "i was here to fight all over a chair blah blah blah." ugh, i fucking hate people. i then came home and talked to john until 10:15p. he had school the next day, i didn't. ;D

monday! today is Eid-Al Fitr. yeah, don't ask. it's the end of Ramadan, the month of fasting. we get to eat all day today and what not. i got 250 bucks. chyea, XD. i didn't go to school today. i had a hard time contemplating whether i should or not last night, and i didnt. we went like everywhere! we went to prayer in the morning and let me tell you i was looking hot! i had this cute outfit on and scarf. after that i went to my mom's friend's hair salon. long story there; they didn't like my hair 'cause it wasn't them that did it. ASSHOLES. they wanted to dye over it i was like nuh-uh don't you fucking dare. then they wanted to cut my hair and i really didn't want them to, but they did anyway! i wanted so bad to have boob coverage. x_x anywayk, so we hung out with them for a bit and gave them some cookies. we then went to this lunch gathering at Pierre's; it was pretty fun. the food was great and the magician was hilarious. he had a bunny! omg, i want one. x_x after that my mother and i came home. these construction guys came over to put the finishing touches on our new cabinets. as soon as they left we attended to a few errands. hella driving for sarah! i'm like constantly driving with no hands no and i feel like i've been doing it for years. ugh, we finally got home. on the way we got this free domino's pizza and 2-liter coke. XD fatty! i just had dinner and now i'm on the phone with john. i miss him terribly. X'[ i hope to see him this weekend. besides that i shall be talking to him for the rest of the night and reading The Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. school tomorrow! yay. ;/

did i mention?

2006-10-21T03:14:44Z

I have PSATs in the morning. I'm taking them for the second time. I hope I do well; with all this stress in my life, it really isn't helping. Funny thing is, when I told her it'll be her fault if I do really bad, she yelled at me and cursed me out. Fucking dumb bitch; just except the fact that sometimes YOU DO MAKE MISTAKES TOO.

obligated.

2006-10-21T03:12:47Z

so lets start with tuesday, went to school, quick day, came home and fell asleep for the rest of the afternoon. woke up at 9p and talked to john, did the homework i had, and that was it.

then wednesday came. school once again. choir rehearsal was cancalled for that afternoon. i came home and then later on returned to the high school to take pictures of skaters. fun day. uhh, i really don't remember what else i did then, but i can assure you it ended with talking on the phone with john from 9p-10:15p and me passing out right after that.

yay for thursday! it was a half day. school goes by so fast, though, and now it just goes quicker. didn't do much. went to school, came home, got ready and shit to go out. it was jennifer's 21st birthday. she nad jeneese picked me up. we were around. i don't want to get into it. shit happened with her and sean. i drove for a bit. shit was then resolved. we then went to her party. i really wasn't feeling it, eh. that's weird. me not feeling a party with two of my best friends. x_x anyhow, so i asked if i could get a ride home and i did. i got home, did my work and such. eventually got on the phone with john and fell asleep on him.

this mornings, friday morning, i went to school. it was another half day. me and strouse had a conversation about parents and parent-teacher conferences. school was then a joke and passed by like nothing else. OMG! i got a 96 on my pre-calc test. yayy XD. i thought i did better, but whatever. i was bound to get one or two things wrong. anyhow, there was a little incident today when i was walking with leslie after lunch. i really don't want to get into it. i just plan on talking to her about it sometime soon. since it was a half day there was no gym so to avoid it i asked to go to strouse's like i usually do when i cut gym. XD strouse lets me, so that's all that matters. we talked about soo much it's not even funny. he was saying how amazing his wife is and all this good stuff about his kids and how they can do whatever they want as long as they finish everything they start. it made me think...i want john to speak of me and our kids like that. it was a really heartwarming feeling. i asked strouse how old he was when he got married. he said about 31 or so. i mentioned me thinking that was too old and it should be around 25/26. he made a point that it's probably the reason why the divorce rate is so high. that then got me thinking about john and i; we're not starting this relationship when we're 31, we're not starting this 25/26, but instead 16/17. it had me thinking and a little worried. eh, whatever. so i came home, i fell asleep from around 1p until 3:30p. john woke me up with his sweet voice. we then talked until about 7p. i ate dinner and got ready and off to the mall with my mother, leslie, and i. good times at the mall, lol. soo many funny moments and retarded!!!! people. x_x wtf, that was weird, anyway. i stole a bag; from hot topic. that's not important though. i also bought stuff from JcPenney. that's not important either. my mother and i got into a huge fight on the way back. it was retarded. i really don't want to think about it. my life is embarassing, ugh. i don't even want to get into it. we're just two completely different people with two completely different cultures living under the same roof. my mother also does not know how to be a mother. she doesn't understand and blames me for ever negative aspect of her life. i never get credit for anything good i do, just the fucking credit for all the shit that happens even when it isn't my fault and hers or someone elses! it just doesn't make sense to me; she always finds a way to blame EVERYTHING on me. it's starting to get old. it has been 5 yrs that i've been dealing with this shit. it's starting to get to the point where the line is getting really thin. i have made my decision that when i turn 18, i will start looking for an apartment or what not, and then i will be completely moved out of this place by the day of my graduation and the night of my graduation will be the first night i spend in my new place.

FiN.

HELP!

2006-10-20T10:29:14Z

someone please tell me why my life is so amazing and full of spontaneous adventures?

eek!

2006-10-16T21:39:01Z

haven't updated in so long. x_x this is horrible. i will get into detail later, but here's an overview:

friday, october 13, 2006 - took the bus home. drove me aunt's car back to the highschool. met with adam op's skate team. took tons of pictures. i was there the whole time. i beat up a little 13 year old; long story. after that came the homecoming football game. good shit. sang the star spangled banner for the beginning. started out hanging with eric, vicky, and mike j. hung around with antoinette for parts of it, after that. then leslie arrived and spent the rest of the time with her. we ditched it after the good parts of half-time. we went to 6th ave and i got a new battery for my digital 'cause i lost it during the shoot. i got her back in time by the end. we won 21-0 (i found this out today). yay raiders! got home, talked to john for the rest of the night.

saturday, october 14, 2006 - john came over. took pics of him skating. spent some hours with him. we picked up leslie. came back and met up with juice. we hung out for a bit. it was time for him to go; it was a close call. he left, and got down my street the second my mom was turning in. x_x good times, though. i then drove to little ceasers. we got pizza. off to hamilton st. cafe it was. the show was AMAZING. i was off the hook. everyone had a good time. great music, fun night, weird adventures. mattlarry and g-money were uhm //clears throat...naughty. ANYWAY, nov 18th is the next show! XD got home that night after dropping leslie off. juice slept over. we were up late. i was on the phone with john until 6a. we weren't awake for half of it. good times.

sunday, october 15, 2006 - car wash! in the morning juice bleached my hair. hella blonde, yo! after that we went to the choir car wash at 11a. it was good shit, hella fun. we were there until about 2:30p. we had to stop back by my house. i eventually drove her home. came back and went tot he mosque. i was so tired, i really didn't want to. some ass hit on me. it was weird. came back home, talked on the phone with john &eventually fell asleep on him. x_x

monday, october 16, 2006 - school. eh, i really didn't want to go. it was hella cold this morning. mr lupo didn't mark me late. it went by really quick, as always. came back home; i didn't take the nap i wanted. got ont he phone with john for an hour. it ended with us talking about juice &having a threesome. x_x i don't even want to get into it. the idea just drives me nuts. ANYWAY; my mother and i are about to go out. home depot to buy a new smoke detector. mall to buy new dressy shirts for me to wear with my furries. hamilton st cafe to pick up the water i left three. oh! i bought two things online today. XD i bought this black bag with white polka dots to match this outfit i have. i'm completing it for Eid Al-Fitr next week. don't think i'll be going to school, eh. uhh, omg! i also asked my mom if i could by furries. she said yesss! yayyy. <333 anyway, that's about it. now i'm out; lates.

p.s. this is definitely more detailed than i wanted it to be. i guess that saves me from writing another post!

SHOW.MUSIC.FUN

2006-10-14T12:28:51Z

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one last thing!

2006-10-12T22:11:05Z

john was supposed to confront katie today. surprisingly, he didn't see her what so ever. that says a lot. i think she's learned to back off. ;D

PEACE! <3

the past few days.

2006-10-12T22:10:27Z

so this week has simply flown by. i don't remember anything from tuesday. x_x all i know is john didn't have school monday or tuesday and was still at his father's until about 6p on tuesday. school has been the same this entire week. the day goes by so fast. i don't remember what i did after school on tuesday. not important. wednesday, the school day disappeared. there was no choir rehearsal after school; however, there was choir for hire and i decided not to go to that. i've been talking to john on the phone every afternoon. it was just sunday night and monday night that john kept me up on the phone until 2a and 4a. ;P i had that lab report due today that i didn't do last night. i did read the pages for english when i was supposed to, for once. i set my alarm for 4:30a, and woke up and went back top sleep for half an hour. i woke up at 5a and somehow managed to finish the entire lab report, typed, by 6:15a, which is when i usually wake up to get ready. XD school was alright. everything always goes the way i want it to. easy, and with no effort. after school came straight home. i've been talking to that spanish, white looking kid a lot. getting to know him, ya know. i found out today his name is raphael. oh! and i had an honors us history ii test today which i totally BOMBED. rae and lc know all about it. XXXD called john around 4p, and just got off the phone with him. i finished all of my pre-calc homework and some of what's due on monday. ;D i'm goood. i still have english reading to do which i plan to do now. it's only like 4 pages and i like reading the book; it's interesting. paxton acknowledged today that the class average was gradually/steadily increasing. i complimented him and told him it shows how good of a teacher he is. there was more detail behind it. he seemed modest at first and then became his usual cocky self and said that he knew he was brilliant...fucknut. after reading, it shall be dinner for my mom and grandmother. i don't eat dinner, actually, i honestly don't eat more than once or twice a day. i like it that way, though. usually lunch at school seems to be perfect to keep me good for the day. :) later on i will be going to barnes &noble to buy a book and some sparknotes. i know i can get them for free online, but it's better to have a hard copy. i have cliffnotes for the book i'm getting the sparknotes for, but it's better to have two opinions rather than one. i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm really getting into this reading thing. maybe it's paxton? i never used to be this way. i know i read a lot, but its not the same. the books i read on my own are ones i like. the ones in school are ones i start off despising and then somehow love them. i'm glad to have paxton as a teacher. i wasn't really worried about the math part of the SAT, but the writing and language arts part had me going. paxton gives me confidence that being in his class will improve my literature ability. even mr. santa maria said. out of the entire school, i think mr. paxton is the smartest, most literature intelligent english teacher. but anyway, while getting the books i might get a frap, cappucino, or a coffee. i also would like to buy some more peanut butter tasty kakes 'cause i seemed to finish them in less then 24 hours. i also want some sunchips for the house! XD god, i'm a fucking fatass. that's all though. oh! we got our pictures today. ugly as shitt. x_x i fucking hate my face. my hair looked thinning. my face looked fat. my make-up was fucked up. i hate it. whatever. i'm peacin' out; i have paxton reading to complete!

i have too much shit to do.

2006-10-12T00:14:29Z

i would really like to update but i'm honestly procrastinating. i have a lab report to write which is due tomorrow. i did most of it but the hard part i left for later. x_x hah, later. otherwise known as tomorrow morning. i might as well read what i must for english instead of doing it in the morning since i have 45 minutes until john calls. besides that i got most of what i needed to done. AP CHEM is hard. the homework problems i just don't get. however in class, it all makes sense to me, ehh. extra help tomorrow. i don't know if i'm staying after. i told him i wasn't. ;/ everything else is swell. school is just so overwhelming. i want to strangle my mother...or just throw something at her. her constant yelling for no reason fucking bugs the shit out of me. oh! and must she blame me for everything? chyea, just about. john makes everything soo much better. i'm glad things are progressing. i really do love him a lot. <3